So it's not a personality problem, it's just a behavioral "illness"... Why can't I stop acting all fucked up?! I want to make everything right, I try my best to accomplish that but I always mess up, it's like an evil side of me is doing everything instead of me... It's not enough that I am way too paranoid, now I have schizophrenic symptoms as well and I feel like I will go crazy again (probably I won't because I never did before, but still...).
What a great day! I probably will mess up tonight with the new guy too... because of trying too hard I guess... But I don't really care actually... or do I? O_o