Wednesday, 29 October 2008

About hugs and kisses... xoxo

I won't write about how great it is to hug or kiss someone, because we all know that ^_^. I will write about the funny situations related to kissing and hugging.

When you think about something for a long time you discover peculiar sides of that thing. Now, for instance, it is a habit that we give our friends a kiss hello and a kiss goodbye. So the kisser maybe wants to give just one kiss on one cheek and the kissee wants the standard two kisses on each cheek. After the whole ceremony the kissee remains with a fat lip and with one kiss pending in the air =]. Another situation is the strange, and for some people very classy three kiss session. This situation on the other hand disadvantages the kisser as he or she will expose a funny kissy face when the kissee withdraws his or her cheeks. And actually the funniest part of the whole kissy-kissy ritual is that it is physically imposibble that both kissing parties receive kisses at the same time, it is more like a face touching thing. The countless kisses that get wasted in the air, it's just sad =]]

So hugs... One funny thing that popped into my mind is the picture-hug. When two or more people are taking pictures, they always hug. I wonder if it is because they want to fit in the frame or because they want to show everyone their affection or just because that's the only way to take group pictures. Boys hug boys, girls hug girls, you even hug the people you don't really like or maybe never even met before, just for the sake of the picture. Now isn't that all lovely and stuff?! =]

So until next time kissez and hugz to all of you


Monday, 27 October 2008

Pop art style life philosophy ^_^

A very dear friend of mine sent me these pics. I love them <3

Good night!


Get out of my head >_<

Let's say someone tells you to stop thinking about that gnome with the red hat. You ask why, what about that gnome and they tell you that it's nothing, it's not worth mentioning. Then of course unwillingly the gnome with its little red hat keeps appearing in your mind.

It is like that with real life stuff, too. You desperately try to avoid a thought and you find yourself thinging about that very thing uninterruptedly. Anyway life still fascinates me and I learned to value the downsides of it, too ^_^.

About insecurity... >_<

If I could take everyone for granted I would be happy...

I keep hurting people and they keep hurting me...

Sex and the City vs. Love and the City *_* (Mr. Right Now vs. Mr. Right)

I am a big fan of Carrie Bradshaw and Sex and the City. I watched every season and the movie like three times already.

There is Louise from St. Louis in the movie, she confesses to Carrie that she moved to New York to find love...

Well amongst other things, I moved to London to find love myself, too... No fb's, no hopeless romances, no one-time-no-more-thank-you-dates, just love <3.

If he doesn't show up, I know for sure that he got hit by a truck >_<

About homesickness... =[

Some days I just want to go home...

I love it here, but I miss my family and friends very much. All day, every day I miss them.

Time can heal homesickness, but it can never cure it completely...

Sunday, 26 October 2008

Insomniac mode O_O

I tried to fall asleep for more than an hour now... I can't go to sleep. Period. I was thinking that I have to go to sleep, I need to sleep, I am useless without a good night's sleep, but frankly I don't need it right now, I'm too excited tonight... I can't point it out why exactly... The deal is that I don't have to sleep if I can't and if I don't want to... Trancelike feeling... sort of...
Music keeps me awake I guess. Arctic Monkeys. I don't listen to Korn anymore... well, not tonight, or not this mornig...

I rescued a Teddy bear the other day from the trash. Here, everyone is throwing out things. Whatever people put in front of their houses is junk, anyone can take it before the garbagemen take it away. So there was a Teddy at our neighbor's, I took it, I put it in the washing machine and I kept it. It's a cuddly Teddy, I am keeping it for sure. I named it. It became a he, Little Molko (after Brian Molko <3).

We'll try to go to sleep now (again *sigh*).

Nighty night!

P.S. Counting sheep might work :D

About soulmates... *_*

I have a friend. He is my soulmate.
He likes factories. He likes communism. He likes poetry. He writes poetry. He likes me.
I like factories (but airplaines too). I like communism (but monarchy too). I like poetry (but prose, too). I don't write poetry, I write blogs. I like him.

Note: there were too many abandoned factory random pics I found, I'm posting just a few.

Good night!

Letting go... >_<

Letting go huh? It's one of the most difficult things a person has to do...

One gets used to something, it doesn't matter if it's good or bad, if it's constructive or destructive, if it's fun or not, if it leads somewhere or not, if it's cuddly or yucky, you just get used to it/him/her... So after a while you realise it's not okay, the whole thing doesn't do you any good, you have nothing to gain from the whole thing, it leaves you empty and miserable (I am listening to Korn, Alone I break... it might have some influence on me or my subconscious at least). The deal is that you have to move on, you try desperatly to hang on to the last inch of it by any means, you even do things you wouldn't normally do, but it doesn't work. So finally you realise you kind of made a fool out of yourself for nothing and then you start to think that there are so many things/persons/whatever which/who are more worthy of your attention and of your energy you are wasting. So you let go. End of story. It is still painful, you will think about it for a while, you will still speculate of what might have been, but you finally stop trying to work things out. And something good will follow. You know it will, it's just a matter of patience and time. If you manage to overcome this fucked up state of mind and of being, you did it, you just fuckin' did it. And life goes on!

Emotional shit, drama queen stuff, call it what you want, life is one great thing ^_^

Cheers, S.

Strongbow reloaded ^_^

I'm drunk... It's a nice feeling :D I always wanted to experience life like the guys from Trainspotting... No heroin, just Strongbow, why not... ^_^

Party without the care of tomorrow. This whole thing reminds me of my college years. Too bad I graduated a few months ago. The only solution is to go to college again.

Sex, drugs and rock'n'roll (or drum'n'bass).

Yeah baby !!!!! ^_^

About friendship... <3

So I'm like sitting in the same room with my so-called friend and I feel alone. It's not because she never has anything to say, just because I don't feel that vibe, that modjo, which makes the connection between two people genuine. Oh snap! The whole thing is kinda messed up...

Thank God I have plenty of real friends who make me hang in there and I will be ok, I won't give up easily, I just have to get used to the new lifestyle I chose (by mistake or by design >_<)...

Anyway, the other day I was talking to my bff online and she told me that she got drunk and she couldn't stop talking about me, how we are like two sisters. The same night I had a dream and she was in it. We were running from something, I was screaming that she has to hold my hand because I can't make it on my own. Telepathy seems to be working ^_^

Bottom line is that I can sit with her in the same room and never feel alone, even if we don't speak for hours... I love her for that dearly <3

I know she is reading this stuff, so I just want to let you know my dear, that I am here for you forever!

Love, S.

Untouchable... O_o

These feelings will be gone... O_o
Just fuck everything... from the heart...
Love, S.
P.S. I've been listening to Korn again these past few days and I just wanted to post Jonathan's mic stand, it's the coolest thing ever >_<

Saturday, 25 October 2008

Forever black-eyed... *_*


  • Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.

  • A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.

  • Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.

  • Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., promiscuous sex, eating disorders, binge eating, substance abuse, reckless driving).

  • Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats, or self-mutilating behavior such as cutting, interfering with the healing of scars (excoriation) or picking at oneself.

  • Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days).

  • Chronic feelings of emptiness, worthlessness.

  • Inappropriate anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).

  • Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation, delusions or severe dissociative symptoms

Next moodswing in exactly seven minutes =]

Love, S.

Electro rock style banana liqueur puke party *_*

So yeah, the title is pretty much self explanatory... We wanted to drink our daily cider and one of our roomies made us some really sweet banana liqueur cocktails with ice and stuff. It was too much, the drinking session had an early ending as we puked our gutts out in the backyard =]] My roomie went to bed, they accidentally locked me out and I had to climb back through the window and five minutes later right back out for another purifying session... O_o

We fell asleep listening to electro rock... he's a fuckin asshole lalalalalalalala (lovely lyrics btw) =]

Friday, 24 October 2008

Alcohol ^_^ (random images)

And the aftermath...

The moral of the whole thing:

I'm addicted to Hello Kitty... =^_^=

Hello Kitty is Japan's brilliant answer to Disney's Mickey Mouse phenomenon in the U.S. The distinct face of Hello Kitty is now plastered on 22,000 different products and sold in about 40 countries. Sanrio's biggest success is its ability to create products that appeal not only to children, but women in their 20s and 30s around the world. That's why Kitty adorns not only bedspreads, backpacks and notebooks, but mobile phones, toasters and even cars.

Every time I see Hello Kitty products in a store I have to buy something, it's like a serious addiction that I can't control and actually I don't even wish to control. It all begun when my 4-year-old cousin started to collect HK stuff, then I started to buy HK stuff for her, until one day I've found myself buying all kinds of HK junk for me, too. If I start to think about this issue more seriously I end up having thoughts about conspiracy theories and that all of us HK Junkies are being controlled by a superior power that is the Sanrio Empire, I can see the Japanese CEO's evil grins as we buy every piece of HK junk we don't need. Check out this page and see for yourself what I am talking about (

Until next time I am going to have lunch with my HK chopsticks, drink tea from my HK mug, write down my to-do-list with my pink HK pen in my HK notebook, read my comments and mail on the Hello Kitty Junkies social site, get dressed in my HK tank top, take my HK tote bag and go down to the mall to buy HK earrings O_o

Love, S.

Rabbit in your headlight...

I'm a rabbit in your headlights
Scared of the spotlight
You don't come to visit
I'm stuck in this bed
Thin rubber gloves
She laughs when she's crying
She cries when she's laughing
Fat bloody fingers are sucking your soul away...(away....away....away....)
I'm a rabbit in your headlights
Christian suburbanite
Washed down the toliet
Money to burn
Fat bloody fingers are sucking your soul away...
Sample from movie jacobs ladder :If you're frightened of dyin and you're holding on...
You'll see devils tearing your life away.
But...if you've made your peace,
Then the devils are really angels
Freeing you from the earth.....from the earth....from the earth
Rotworms on the underground
Caught between stations
I'm losing my patience
I'm a rabbit in your headlights
Christian suburbanite
You got money to burn....
Fat bloody fingers are sucking your soul away.....Away, away, away,Away, away, away.



The Cardigans- My Favourite game

Red Hot Chili Peppers- Scar Tissue

strongbow cider, "winter passing" and dreaming all night... O_o

Last night after having two strong ciders with my roomie, we decided to watch a movie. "Winter passing", one of my favourite movies ( I watched it like five times already. I love the heroine, Reese, she reminds me of myself. The whole subject has a very interesting white trash-ish kind of feeling. The places inspire me in a strange way, it's like I've been there before... (Does it happen to you that you find a place that you have seen in your dreams? It does happen to me many times, it lasts ony for a few seconds, but it gives me the creeps, good greeps :P). Anyway, one of the scenes at the beginning is mind blowing, I always wanted to have a room like that... it has a large window, the lighting is rather dim, there is a big bed and loads of books all around the room...

The big bed with the white sheets... a bottle of wine, not a care in the world... a girl can dream, now can't she? O_o

Have fun watching the movie or your dreams!

Love, S.

Thursday, 23 October 2008

to be or not be... able to take decisions O_o

Today I told him that I want a break, that I don't want to talk to him for a while... but I actually do...
How effin selfish of me...
Good night *_*
(Happy 74th B'day Grandpa <3)

blue-red neon lights *_*

I always have strange dreams... I have several which appear to me more than once... Like this peculiar dream I've had so many times... I am going on the street at night wearing a black coat and high heels, above the sewers there is steam, ambulances and the police are coming and going... (just like an action movie/drama/police movie/thriller from the 90's :P). Anyway I end up in a cheap motel, I enter the room which is right next to the motel-sign, the sign has blue and red neon lights. The room is filthy, I just stay there looking out the window and after this I always wake up...
If anyone can tell me if there is a movie which has similar scenes, please let me know, beacause I've had enouhg of this dream and it never comes to an end.

Anyway here are some clues. Guess the character I am in this dream... :P

a) a prostitute
b) an undercover fbi agent
c) a junky or
d) do you think I need professional help because I am losing my sanity

Thank you for reading and for your cooperation :)

Love, S.

Sylvinka in Wonderland 2.0

So I just started blogging... again. This is like an upgraded version of my older blog which was written in Hungarian ( It's been more than one year...

This blog will be about random thoughts...

Enjoy ^_^