Sylvinka in Wonderland 2.0

Annoying O_x

2010-05-26T03:49:00.000-07:00

First of all being pregnant is a really cool, even if there are some days when it can cause quite a great discomfort, but it's worth every second of it. Now, the attitude of some people towards a pregnant woman can be absolutely horrible and annoying to say the least.

Never ever tell a pregnant woman that she's huge, she's not huge, she has a baby of the size of a watermelon in her belly, the only thing that's huge is the difference from being fat or massive or whatever. I actually got to the point when I was sporting a tee saying: I'm not fat, I'm pregnant.

You might not know, but it's a superpower to grow babies in your womb, I bet all the ignorant people who say these absolutely ridiculous comments don't even have one to begin with. We rock moms! ^_^

Also touching and even kissing the belly. Why on earth would you want to do that? As long as I don't walk around touching other people's bellies, I don't see what entitles anyone to do so just because there is a baby inside. What I do when someone just jumps in front af me and starts rubbing my belly I just do the same to them, which causes an awkward situation and some of them actually get the point. On the other hand at least some have the decency and ask before they do it. Anyway my opinion on this is that rubbing a pregnant woman's belly is like rubbing the hunch of the Hunchback of Notre Dame just becuse it's there. Not very nice.

When are you due, is it a boy or a girl, what are you naming him/her, are you afraid of giving birth, does it push you really bad, can you still walk and so on, everyday questions from so many people and it sucks out all of my energy. I am not an invalid, yes I still can walk perfectly fine and do everything as before. As for the rest of the questions, give me a break, would you? It's like asking someone when their birtday is or what their name is every single day. It is annoying trust me. I know that most of them mean well, but if you want to be helpful and nice to a mom, just leave her alone with these questions, comments and the belly rubbing routine. Being sensitive about it is the key.

Oh well, at least I got it out of my system.

Toodles! ^_^

About birds and bees ^_^

2010-04-19T11:01:00.000-07:00

I have been away for long... I'm still away, up in the clouds, never wanting to come down to this strange place some people call Earth. I am happy, never been this happy in my life I think, yet the word that controls my life is stress. He's no better, he's more stressed than I am, even when we decide not to be aware that it's there. It will pass. Soon.

I blame this stress monster or intense superstition and negative thoughts for not wanting to buy baby clothes or not wanting to let the world know that she is about to arrive. Soon. Soon you will know. Soon it's Summer. ^_^

Toodles!

November rain and borderline relationships... O_o

2009-11-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

I know it's been ages since I last wrote for the simple reason that my cyberlife is losing to my real life.

I met a boy. He's my male version and I knew it straight away that that there is quite a big chance that he is the one. This post is dedicated to him.

From time to time in a relationship or in a pseudorelationship things tend to be sweet or bitter or better yet a bittersweetish mixture of happiness, sorrow, disappointment, hopelessness, endless extasy and so on, . Being borderline about it won't do too much good. This time it is so strange, because I'm not the only one trying to hang on to something in a desperate manner, which sooner or later screws up everything and leaves me with nothing. It's two of us this time. I find it hard to express my feelings, he doesn't. It scares me, usually I tend to run when the other one's affection towards me becomes owerwhelming and slightly much too handle, in the same way as I used to chase away so many people by being straight forward and a little pushy I dare say.

Still we're two of a kind and I shouldn't be scared, I've found what I've been looking for for ages, however I think the timing was perfect, we both had more than enough time to experience all sorts of crazy things without a guilty conscience that by doing these things severe consequences will follow.

Anyway, every mnute seems like an eternity when spent alone.

My feelings are like a rollercoaster at the moment, but I'm sure I will be able to sort that one out, too.

All I want is to stop worrying about senseless things and start living and start being happy instead of being paranoid all the time.

Yours forever and ever (or at least for 20 years =]])

Small talk o_o

2009-09-29T02:22:00.000-07:00

-Do you still believe what boys tell you?
-No. Do you still believe what girls tell you?
-No.
-Then we are two of a kind.

Later...

-You know, we have a ghost in the house.
-Really? We had a ghost in our flat once, too.
-I believe in ghosts and stuff.
-So do I. I thought you were a bit weird, but now I think you're cool.

Friends <3

2009-08-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

Warning! Cheesy statement coming up!

My close friends are like stars, sometimes I can't see them, but I know that they are there!

On the other hand when I see them after a long time they make me feel more alive than I could ever imagine, even if we're just vegging out on the couch and listen to music...

Love you guys very very much!

X_x

2009-07-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

It's not fresh, it's dead for crying out loud!

Think again about your choices! If you don't have the heart to eat this baby chick, stop eating meat!

Michael was innocent! >_<

2009-07-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

MJ was a big kid in a grown man's body. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that! I understand perfectly his need for spending some time with boys. What the hell, I love spending time with little girls and you don't see anyone pressing charges against me and my outrageous behaviour, simply because it's absolutely normal!

Kids have this magic ability to make you feel like one of them once more. When I play with the little girls from my family I just feel like I'm their age again, and it's so much fun to play without a care in the world and to actually be able to forget the stress of everyday life for a short time.

I absolutely hate all the ignorant bastards who just can't mind their own business! Get a life!

So who's bad now, huh? :P

May you rest in peace Michael! The world loves you!

R.I.P. Michael Jackson! =[

2009-06-25T16:01:00.000-07:00

Michael Jackson died a few hours ago of an alleged heart attack. He was 50 and was planning his comeback in London at the O2. Speechless...
May he rest in piece(s). Sorry! The nose made me write that...
All jokes aside, I'm deeply sorry, he was one of my childhood heroes...

O_o

2009-06-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

When people call me childish, I take it as a compliment even though they ment to criticise me...
Oh well, toodles! ^_^

The story of the annoying bird >_<

2009-06-15T13:48:00.000-07:00

I am a big animal rights supporter, but there is one bird that annoys the eff out of me! Every single night for the past week it insists on chirping on the very tree in front of my window and it goes on for hours. If I only had a slingshot...

Shoes shoes shoes _

2009-06-13T01:07:00.000-07:00

Sorry another post with pics of gorgeous heels <3

meat.org

2009-06-08T10:56:00.000-07:00

Because you are what you eat! Meet your meat and think again! You could save hundreds of animals by becoming vegetarian or vegan.

Prince Charming O_x

2009-06-07T13:29:00.000-07:00

He has a great sense of humor and is fun to hang out with, crazy boy!

He is absolutely beautiful and has a great style, all the girls want a piece of him, he put cool in the dictionary.

He is the best lover in the world, he makes me feel like a princess.

He is extremely clever and we can talk about anything from Shakespeare to Freud to parallel universes.

He likes the same music and films that I do.

I'm in love with all five of them... X_X

Tearless times O_O

2009-06-04T03:53:00.000-07:00

Sometimes everyone feels the need to cry, it can be a huge relief... Go ahead label me emo, I couldn't give a rat's ass to be honest! Anyway my tears got stuck and when I listened to this RHCP song, a few of them managed to leave my eyes :P

Do you smell like a girl when you smile, too? ^_^

Enjoy this gorgeous AMV!

My favourite poem of all times [Hungarian]

2009-06-03T13:08:00.001-07:00

ADY ENDRE (1877-1919):
Lédával a bálban

Sikolt a zene, tornyosul, omlik
Parfümös, boldog, forró, ifju pára
S a rózsakoszorús ifjak, leányok
Rettenve néznek egy fekete párra.

"Kik ezek?" S mi bús csöndben belépünk.
Halál-arcunk sötét fátyollal óvjuk
S hervadt, régi rózsa-koszoruinkat
A víg teremben némán szerte-szórjuk.

Elhal a zene s a víg teremben
Téli szél zúg s elalusznak a lángok.
Mi táncba kezdünk és sírva, dideregve
Rebbennek szét a boldog mátka-párok.

1907

Puppies <3

2009-06-03T07:10:00.000-07:00

I want a puppy or two or three or a hundred soooooo much!

Happy Children's Day! ^_^

2009-06-01T01:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Children's Day to all the kids and to all the grown-ups who never actually grew up ^_^

Drag Me To Hell >_<

2009-05-29T00:21:00.000-07:00

Christine Brown has a good job, a great boyfriend, and a bright future. But in three days, she's going to hell.

I can honestly say that it's the best horror flick in ages. Raimi did an absolutely marvellous job. It is the film that scares the crap out of you and makes you laugh, sometimes at the same time. It got very positive reviews, I mean how could it not when it is a masterpiece! Period.

One of the rottentomatoes.com review goes like this:

So, no, if you're looking for a modern classic -- something that's going to creepy-crawl under your skin like "Pan's Labyrinth," or "The Others," or "The Ring" or "The Sixth Sense" -- sorry. This bit of ghoulish, gory black comedy doesn't deliver on that level (mostly because it doesn't want to).
But if you're not looking for a coolly creepy, elegantly eerie classic -- if all you want are shocks and bumps and screams and laughs and a couple of they-did-NOT-just-show-that jawdroppers -- then "Drag Me To Hell" is definitely the funhouse ride for you.

When the film ended I rushed to the loo with some fellow scared girlies. The lights were off and we could see the silhouette of an old lady with a head scarf on, just like the gypsy from the film. We ran out of that toilet like crazy.Talking about mass hysteria huh?! :P

Well, after all we're all going to hell eventually...

Professor Stephen Hawking _

2009-05-20T10:36:00.000-07:00

I must have been living in a nuthshell for most of my teenage years, or simply I am becoming a belated geek, no idea...

I started reading Professor Stephen Hawking's A Brief History of Time yesterday, and it is simply amazing! I've never been a big fan of physics, but Prof. Hawking's book made me want to find out more about black holes and parallel universes, as most of the things I know are just a bunch of educated guesses. I can't stop reading and rereading parts of this book, it makes my jaw drop literally!

Strange, that as I grow older I am eager to find out more and I finally admit (to myself mostly) that my knowledge can be enriched so much more by reading all the books I haven't read, because I had more important things to do, like getting wasted and having hangovers which kept me in bed for a whole day. I can't believe I'm actually writing this! :P

[www.hawking.org.uk]

I am posting a part of an episode of Dexter's Lab. Figure it out yourselves! =]]

My Neighbor Totoro <3

2009-05-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

Miyazaki's animes are absolutely brilliant!

My Neighbor Totoro, Howl's Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke, Kiki's Delivery Service, Spirited Away are just a few worth watching!

This bit is one of my favourites ^_^

It's like this most days... O_o

2009-05-15T02:42:00.000-07:00

[nataliedee.com]

Wishes... _

2009-05-14T11:47:00.000-07:00

When you want something for all the wrong reasons, don't expect it to happen!

I love...

2009-05-08T12:29:00.000-07:00

The Cure! Period.

Wind and trees _

2009-05-08T05:55:00.001-07:00

When I was a kid I thought that trees are making the wind blow and it was such a disappointment when I found out that trees are moving because the wind is blowing...

It was so nice when all you had to do all day is discover the world in an endlessly seeming big adventure... now the biggest adventure is finding yourself, in a world which is upside down and only the small things remind you that once it used to be a place you loved to live in...

Note to self O_o

2009-05-07T12:19:00.001-07:00

I have been invisible on the messenger for weeks now, I just talked to my Mom. I didn't really go out to party for weeks as well. Just to the movies and to a small road trip.

I need to socialize again!

Funny vid ^_^

2009-05-07T01:35:00.000-07:00

I just got this link from a friend as I was obsessing with Billy Idol's White Wedding a while ago. This vid is hilarious!

Throw rocks at boys! ^_^

2009-05-04T13:07:00.000-07:00

You have to try it, it's a fun game! Imagine that every boy you hit with a rock is one of the boys you hate. Yeayyyy!!http://www.davidandgoliathtees.com/games/throwrocks.html

My to do list for the day [and for the week perhaps] X_x

2009-05-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

1. Get up.
2. Survive.
3. Go back to bed.

Oh no, I'm not... O_o

2009-05-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

This is no news, but London is filled with foreigners. Random people keep asking me if I'm French, Polish, Russian, Dutch and even Brazilian, which is really awkward because I am white as a ghost since I stopped using those crappy suntan beds...

I always guess people's nationalities by their accents... It's so easy, seriously... Oh, and by the way, British boys just love girls with a cute Eastern European accent ^_^

Cheers!

1 Mai Muncitoresc _

2009-05-01T04:59:00.000-07:00

Trăiască patria, Republica Socialistă România!

Okay, I have to admit I am a nasty little communist! I am very nostalgic about the first five years of my life during the communist regime. All I remember is flowers, sunshine, the queues for bread and butter with my grandma. It was a great time!

Happy Labor Day working class heroes!

No

2009-04-30T11:48:00.000-07:00

I don't even want anything I was desperate to have anymore... I feel too tired... I couldn't handle it if he decided he wanted me after all... I want my dreams to remain dreams and I want my life to be my life and not some series of silly scenes I invent to escape from reality... everything gets all mixed up in the end... I can't swim and I won't learn to swim in the near future, all I can do is float...

So screw it all, I am going to Brighton!!!

Peace!

New Blog! ^_^

2009-04-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, I've just created a new blog where I will post my comic strips. Enjoy!
http://sylvinka-comics.blogspot.com/

80's hair >_<

2009-04-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord please don't let the 80's hair metal hairstyles come back in fashion! They are hideous!

It's a definite NO!

The evil black cat _

2009-04-25T08:40:00.000-07:00

I don't like cats, I have nightmares of them jumping on me, scratching and biting me 'till I bleed to death in horrible agony... And I am also superstitious, black cats crossing my path... it can't get worse...

Today I went to Highgate Cemetery, it's truly beautiful.

When I was walking down the hill next to the fence of the cemetery I noticed a black cat sitting in the middle of the walk. It didn't pay any attention to the two people walking past it before me. It was waiting for me I tell you and it had an evil look in it's eyes. I am trying not to romanticise or overdramatize the whole story, but it was dreadful. It was nothing like Emily Strange's cat...

So anyway as I was getting closer, it started running towards me, I thought I would faint that instance, I could already see how it will scratch my eyes out. It was very insistent, I stroked it, thinking that it's better this way. Then I wanted to walk away and it jumped on the fence next to me, I stroked it again and then all of a sudden, with an unexpected movement it put it's paw on my hand. It might sound silly, laugh all you want, but it wasn't in a playful way, it was something maleficent. Then I sped up my steps and as I looked back it was still staring at me.

I think it might have jumped on the back of the bus and might have followed me home. Now it's just waiting for the darkness to fall over the city and then it'll fulfil it's evil plan to destroy me. Oh dear... >_<

[Okay, this last part isn't true, but if my posts cease to exist, you can be sure that the cat managed to pull it off...]

Gipsy girl tattoos... _

2009-04-23T12:41:00.000-07:00

Why is everyone getting them?

People are stealing my writings... >_<

2009-04-23T07:20:00.000-07:00

For those of you who don't know, my writings are copyrighted, mkay? Today I found one of my posts on an old aquaintance's website, my exact same words, posted as hers. Well fuck off!!! From tomorrow my blog will be invite only. So I'm giving my readers a few hours to contact me if they want to read my blog in the future.

God damn plagiarists. Now I know how annoying it can be, even if it's just a personal blog. Post your own damn ideas instead of others'!!! Ignorant fuckin' pricks!!!

Excuse my French, but I'm a bit pissed off!!!

Earth Day ^_^

2009-04-22T14:05:00.000-07:00

Today was Earth Day. I usually do something creative on this day or at least I do something good for the environment. Today I was feeling a bit depressed and all I did was kill some mosquitoes again... Oh well... Happy Earth Day citizens of Earth!

[Do you remeber Captain Planet btw? The gang was so cool! ^_^]

Bad hair day >_<

2009-04-21T15:06:00.000-07:00

Third one in a row >_<

I wish my hair would grow back long fast!

Exterminator mode X_X

2009-04-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

I sleep with my window open and before turning off the lights I have to kill the mosquitoes with my slippers. They are huge, back home they were tiny and almost impossible to spot. This whole process reminds me of my third year at uni when we had moths in our flat, hundreds of them and cocoons under the bed. God, I loved that trashy place. It was the best year ever! We didn't have TV or Internet in the flat, just a CD player with a radio and we were not bored one single minute. I miss those days... I wish London's early summer midnight air would smell as good as it did back home...

Horea street was a magical place for two years in a row...

Fashion disaster O_o

2009-04-21T14:17:00.000-07:00

Cowboy boots with skinnies... What has the world come to? >_<

I hereby officially state that I hate cowboy boots, no matter how rock they are these days!!! Get your good old filthy Converses out from wherever you have thrown them for crying out loud!!!

Noone loves me >_<

2009-04-21T14:15:00.000-07:00

Actually let me rephrase... All the wrong people love me. Sorry for not loving you back!
*sigh*
Karma's being a bitch these days...

I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT

2009-04-19T15:37:00.000-07:00

I've finally seen him live at Give It A Name with Escape the Fate and he is fuckin' amazing!!!

Oh and btw GIAN was like a hairflipping fringe heaven! :P

A must see _

2009-04-18T10:32:00.001-07:00

Nostalgic... O_o

2009-04-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

I want to go home, go to some random huge abandoned factory in the middle of the night with my own personal Sid and wait for the atomic bomb to hit us while we discuss how endless the Universe is...

Where the hell are you? O_o

Prozac X_X

2009-04-18T07:31:00.000-07:00

This morning being all messed up after another glorious night, I went out to hang out with my friend and in this charity shop some middle aged shopkepers were talking about various things, amongst which Prozac. One of them said: Well, hell yeah I am taking it, it's the only way I can survive this shitty life. The other one was like: Yeah but sometimes if you have aggressive tendencies than all it does is make you even more aggressive, I can tell you for a fact as I experienced it. What a nice small talk it was on a Saturday morning.

Now I know that I'll have some mates to discuss the effects of Prozac with, once I'll be on it, too... We can start a support group kind of thing: The Charity Shop presents the Anonymous Prozac Addicts O_o

Blaaaaank O_o

2009-04-17T20:20:00.000-07:00

I always get what I want and then I lose it as fast as I get it... Life is so unfair... Sometimes I wish I would be more careful what I wish for...

I can't even enjoy things because I know that the consequences will hurt me... And the sad part is that I am the only one to blame for my unfortunate choices... oh yeah, and I don't stop when I still can, I just go on knowing that it will suck big time in the end... Fuck it and fuck every little scumbag!

And I thought that the lack of alcohol will make me avoid doing stupid things, well it didn't. It was just a regular trashy Friday night, but this time it was bittersweet or better yet sweet/bitter. Things won't be different, I am conscious of that, so I won't fool myself anymore.

If there would be only one single asshole left on this planet, I'm sure he would find me...

[High on Red Bull]

High school obsession _

2009-04-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

When I was in high school I used to listen to this like crazy O_o

Sober ^_^

2009-04-12T18:25:00.000-07:00

This straight edge thing is working out really well for me! I had so much fun tonight, pubbing with some friends and I am in bed now fresh and aware of everything I've said and done in the past hours. I'm sure the Pavlov's dog effect in the morning will wear off soon!

Good night!

Strange fact of the day _

2009-04-12T04:07:00.000-07:00

I don't drink anymore... I went out twice this weekend, all I had was water and Red Bull and in the morning I have terrible hangovers... Nurofen time... How strange is that? My mom thinks I suffer from Pavlov's dog syndrome O_o

Car doors... O_o

2009-04-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

Have you ever noticed the following phenomenon? For instance a guy is getting a cab and the door is locked, he knocks on the driver's sidewindow and shows him that it's locked. The driver opens it in the same time as the anxious passanger pulls the handle, thus the door remains stuck. This happens two-three times until he realises that he just should wait for a second and pull after that...

Hey little sister what have you done?! ^_^

2009-04-10T05:42:00.000-07:00

I feel a terrible urge to listen to Billy Idol's White Wedding! *_*

Pirates O_x

2009-04-10T05:22:00.000-07:00

I am warning you, this is hilarious =]]

Pirates hold captain hostage as U.S. ship sails away
A freed cargo ship goes on its way as four stranded pirates, with their American captive, in one small lifeboat face off against a U.S. destroyer, surveillance craft and helicopters.

[Los Angeles Times, April 10, 2009]

They must be living their childhood dreams. I want to play pirate, too! Arrrggghhhhh!!!

I wonder though if they have wooden legs and eyepatches and parrots on their shoulders...

P!ink ^_^

2009-04-09T06:23:00.000-07:00

I really like Pink, I always have! She is a cool gal ^_^
I love her new video and I want to have that pink outfit she's wearing. It's like Alice in Wonderland meets gothic lolita/porcelain doll, all in one...

Another religion related post, sorry... O_o

2009-04-08T15:19:00.001-07:00

I've been going to mass this week, for my grandpa and for myself too actually. Going to church is slowly becoming addictive... think Fight Club... you know the support group thing... it feels like that... sort of...

The thing is that I don't know any prayers, okay, just one in Hungarian, but here I have no clue what to say in church and the prayers... no idea about that whatsoever either and I didn't even bother to check them how they sound in English, not even out of curiosity. I never even wanted to learn one anyway. Here's what I think of prayers... In school you had to learn poems by heart and I always found it very difficult to memorize them and I didn't see the point of the whole thing. It didn't leave any room for your own thoughts and creativity. You learnt a poem by heart, you got a good grade, if you failed to learn it, you got a bad grade. Simple as that.

Now, does learning loads of prayers and saying them over and over again, instead of talking to God in your own words, make you look good in the eyes of God? And if you don't know even one single prayer does it mean that you are doomed forever? Okay, I know silly rethoric questions, but please do tell if you feel the need to learn prayers for different reasons!

Peace be with you and good night! ^_^

God _

2009-04-06T11:56:00.000-07:00

It's been a week since my beloved grandpa passed away... still can't believe it and nothing will be the same ever again...

I went to church tonight... I almost never go to church because I just rarely feel the need to attend a mass. I rather go to church alone whenever I think it might help me in some way. I can take care of all my issues with God anywhere, I don't need a priest who maybe isn't even a true believer and who is a bigger sinner than I am to preach about how great God is. I know that, thank you very much. God is in my heart. Period.

The mass started one hour later for some reason and I had plenty of time to think. Many thoughts crossed my mind during that hour, religion related things mainly. St. Dominic's Priory smells like the church at home... Anyway I could draw the conclusion again that God is so cool that He has loads of pseudonyms and he has many thousands of houses all over the world. Oh, and He is reading your blog too, even if you're a non-believer! =]]

My favourite part of a mass is when you shake hands with total strangers in the name of peace, and the love you feel is sometimes greater than the love you get from your closest friends...

I'm a total mess...

Rest in peace Grandpa!

P.S. I hope I didn't sound like some kind of a cult leader, but religion vs. faith is always an interesting topic to talk about...

Peace! ^_^

khsdbghpiehbinkbiphbgpohjerpohbjfdopbjeo

2009-04-05T02:28:00.001-07:00

Haven't had a messed up mood like this in ages... Haven't slept for days... I miss my grandpa... I miss him really bad =[[

I wanted to stay home and I wanted to come back in the same time... It was okay at home but I missed London... Now I'm here and I am so pissed off that I didn't stay for another week at least... Now I miss my Mom and Grandma and the rest of my family and friends... I have to send the application folder to the uni next week... There is a slight chance that I screw that up too and then I don't have a plan B so again I feel like I want to run out of this world...

I know I I I, it sounds like it's all about me... if I feel rotten all the rest of the world should feel rotten or if not so, at least everyone should try to cheer me up for crying out loud so that I can be myself again! I never felt more lonely than now... Yet strangely I don't want to socialize with anyone...

There was just one thing I could do... listen to music on my iPod while I was on the bus from the airport and make up silly little scenes in my head which cheered me up for a few seconds... I love tunnels, even the short ones under the motorway sections with the little yellow lights... for a few seconds it feels like it's nighttime and that I am some kind of a jamesbondish character who is in the middle of some action moment... and then the planes take off and they dissapear in the sun for a fraction of a second and then they speed up... it is so dynamic and I always play some hardcore music during these sequences or sometimes just Placebo or Portishead or something really chill. Today was a hardcore kind of theme song day.

Okay then, hope that everyone has at least a half as a crappy day as I do!

Love,

Rest in peace my beloved grandpa!

2009-04-03T00:12:00.000-07:00

I will always love you and I will miss you very much! You were the best grandpa anybody could ever have!

I Will Battle For The Sun... O_o

2009-03-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

That's right my dears, the new Placebo song is out and the new album will be out in June!
Oh boy, oh boy, I'm so excited!
Mr. Molko is my killer, my lover... <3 <3 <3

Confessions... O_o

2009-03-27T00:42:00.000-07:00

The other night we were talking about the fact that so many kids and scenesters listen to bands that we absolutely love and we don't love them because they are a must on a scenesters list... So the question was if it's lame to admit that we do listen to these bands...

Well, here it comes, I officially admit it that I love Green Day, Blink 182, Korn, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park and so on! Bring on the nu metal baby! Oh and of course I loveeeeeeeeeeee screamo, mkay?

If we are at this chapter I also have to confess that I am a fan of Bill Kaulitz and he is hot. Period.

Rock on!

Withdrawal >_<

2009-03-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

I'm terribly nervous these days, I cannot focus on anything and I have hundreds of thoughts waiting to make my brain explode. I change my mind in the last minute and then I start to panic! God I wish I could drink at least half a pint of cider >_<

I have to hang in there!!!

20

2009-03-23T11:33:00.000-07:00

Seems like I did everything when I was 20... O_o

Straight edge time ^_^

2009-03-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

As many of you know I'm vegetarian and I don't smoke, I'm not a really big fan of drugs, I just drink. A lot.

I've got a cold for more than four days now, but I still went out last night and drank until I started calling people at five in the morning again dead drunk, not to mention the terrible hangover and my cold is worse than it was at the beginning. So this morning puts an end to all of this shit. Let's see how long I will last... Wish me luck!

Cheers! ^_^

Emo moments >_<

2009-03-19T05:00:00.000-07:00

When I decided to stop pretending I realized that I've lost myself in the meanwhile... so now I just want to be what I was when I wanted to be what I am now... Capisci? ^_^

The Wizard of Oz <3

2009-03-19T02:43:00.000-07:00

I'm the biggest Wizard of Oz freak ever!!!

The most outrageous thing!!! >_<

2009-03-15T10:46:00.000-07:00

Taking Art TOO Far -Guillermo Vargas "Habacuc"

In the 2007, the ‘artist’ Guillermo Vargas Habacuc, took a dog from the street, he tied him to a rope in an art gallery, starving him to death.
For several days, the ‘artist’ and the visitors of the exhibition have watched emotionless the shameful ‘masterpiece’ based on the dog’s agony, until eventually he died.
But this is not all… the prestigious Visual Arts Biennial of Central America decided that the ‘installation’ was actually art, so that Guillermo Vargas Habacuc has been invited to repeat his cruel action for the biennial of 2008.

I just found out about this stupid ignorant idiot mofo, I cannot find words to describe him! I would tie him to a rope in a gallery and let him starve in his own shit and piss in the most terrible agony and I would pay an entrance fee to see this god damn bastard die in the worst possible way!!!! I'm not posting any pictures because it's just to cruel!

For all the people who love dogs and animals, get involved!!!

www.peta2.com

15th of March - Hungarian National Day ^_^

2009-03-15T03:29:00.000-07:00

I never was a big fan of these celebrations, national days and what not, but today that I am away from home I feel the need to express my devotion to the Hungarian nation somehow...

Happy national day for all Hungarians all over the world!

And now let me be a bit cheesy and post a Wass Albert quote:

"Gond embernek lenni, igaz embernek meg kettőzött gond éppen. Igaz magyar embernek lenni pedig akkora teher, hogy aki sokat viseli, megerősödik."

TIFF 2009 [Cluj-Napoca] _

2009-03-14T13:55:00.000-07:00

As the submission deadline is over, the eighth edition of the Transilvania IFF (May 29 – June 7, Cluj-Napoca, Romania) is beginning to shape up. Over 250 films are expected to be screened in this year’s TIFF.
The opening gala on Friday, May 29, will be highlighted by the national premiere of Cristian Mungiu’s latest film, Tales from the Golden Age, a collection of Romanian urban legends from the communist era, written by Mungiu and directed by Ioana Uricaru, Hanno Hofer, Razvan Marculescu, Constantin Popescu and Cristian Mungiu.
Unlike 4 months, 3 weeks and 2 days, Tales from the Golden Age is a comedy based on the most hilarious Romanian urban legends of the 1980s, restoring the humour which helped most of Romanians survive the communist regime. The Tales include iconic moments from the childhood and youth of the 1965-1970 generations: singing the national anthem at the beginning of every school day, shouting in the streets whenever an official car would pass by, the happiness of sharing a banana on Christmas Eve, selling empty bottles for pocket money and many other.

[www.tiff.ro]

Oh boy oh boy, can't wait for this year's filmfest, I'm definitely flying home in May, cannot miss it! ^_^ I'll be moving in the theaters for 10 days! I remember how we skipped class and went to see the films and I even skipped work with my boss last year. This year it will be nothing but films, all day long!

I know... _

2009-03-14T13:19:00.000-07:00

You know I know someone who knows the girl who knows the guy that knows you, and the girl also knows the new girlfriend of that guy you dated and they all go out with the same people I used to go out a while ago, and a new guy is going out with them who apparently knows you and your sister and your sister's friend Jake who is said to be a cunt because he cheated on the girl who now goes out with your best friend...

...

2009-03-14T08:04:00.000-07:00

The only good thing about hitting rock bottom is that you know that you cannot possibly get lower than that...

Weirdo O_o

2009-03-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

Deserted island dilemma _

2009-03-12T14:26:00.000-07:00

Most people would take the Bible to a deserted island if they could pick only one thing. I would take the Wizard of Oz by L. Frank Baum! <3

Beautiful masterminds _

2009-03-11T13:08:00.000-07:00

Fifteen people have been killed by a teenage gunman who went on a rampage in south-west Germany, officials say. Among the dead were nine pupils, eight of them girls, and three teachers at the Albertville secondary school in the town of Winnenden, north of Stuttgart.
The gunman, a 17-year-old former pupil named as Tim Kretschmer, entered the school at about 0930 (0830 GMT) in black combat gear and began shooting. He fled in a stolen car, but killed himself after being cornered by police.
Officials said he was an ordinary pupil who had received good reports from school.
[http://news.bbc.co.uk-11 March 2009]

He must have watched Elephant... I wonder when they will blame it on television or on the censors or on the Internet... Well frankly I wouldn't blame it on anyone or anything... Teenagers have all kinds of scenes in their heads, some of them have the gutts to carry out their ideas, some of them don't. Death and suicide and everything gory for that matter has become such a glam thing in our days. The cult of death is the new black!

Anyway this 17-year-old kid must have had a pretty good reason to run amok like crazy, it's a shame though that he had to die too before even having the chance to explain his motivation.

I'm not saying that it's totally fine what he did, but if we analyse it from a different angle it might make sense [yes, i am on the madman's side:P]. He created art, macabre art [if we exclude the human factors, such as the devastation the families must have felt by losing their loved ones in such a tragic way].

Don't think I'm a total freak, I'm not the only one who considers massacres romanticised. In Romanian literature there is a historical writing called Alexandru Lapusneanu by Costache Negruzzi. It presents the way this ruler slashed 47 noblemen and placed their heads in a pyramidal shape. This writing is a compulsory one in Romanian high schools. I think I don't need to add anything else here...

Bottom line is that I am fascinated by the psychology of serial killers and people who run amok. They are geniuses...

Don't call, don't text, don't send mails, save your time >_<

2009-03-10T14:15:00.000-07:00

"This was one of those situations where you know you’ll regret what you’re about to do, but you know you’re going to do it anyway. I had that feeling a lot. When I thought about it, I couldn’t remember ever not having it."— Jerry Stahl, Perv—A Love Story

Childhood memories <3

2009-03-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

I am chasing past feelings like crazy. I wish I could see the sunset from my grandparents' big hall window at least once more, while the kitchen smells like pancakes with peach marmalade. I wish I could sit in the garden chair again with my dog and listen to the noise of the summer bugs while it gets dark. I wish I could wake up and go out in the garden barefoot, wearing nothing but my pyjamas, climb up the apple tree and read a book. I wish my grandparents were young again...

I am totally fine mkay? ^_^

2009-03-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

Thank you for your kind concern, but stop telling me that my blog is becoming emo, I just had some bad days! I am fine, everything is okay, I have everything under control and frankly I don't give a damn about fake ass people who are there only when they feel like it! Burnnnnnnn!

Lots of love to all my old and new friends!

Hottest Rock Stars _

2009-03-08T14:58:00.000-07:00

1. Tommy Lee of Motley Crue [the ultimate bad boy ^_^]

2. Nikki Sixx of Motley Crue [lucky Kat von D :P]

3. Dave Navarro of Jane's Addiction

4. Craig Mabbit of Escape the Fate

5. Oliver Sykes of Bring Me The Horizon

6. Brian Molko of Placebo

7. Davey Havok of AFI

8. Marilyn Manson

9. Jared Leto of 30 Seconds to Mars

10. Ville Vallo of HIM

>_<

2009-03-08T14:38:00.000-07:00

I am starting to get convinced that I am looking for something inexistent, thus the constant heartache... it's all in my head...

Contemplating Reiko O_o

2009-03-07T05:25:00.001-08:00

My favourite gory animations ever ^_^
Check out taintedink.com!

Lost... O_o

2009-03-07T02:44:00.000-08:00

I reallys shouldn't text people drunk at 3.30 in the morning! >_<

Diagnosis: lost and confused

Treatment: fly home for 10 whole days and calm the fuck down!

Comfortably numb _

2009-03-04T05:03:00.000-08:00

The time for a significant change has come, I have the oportunity and I will take advantage of it, because I am getting used to a situation I don't exactly like. I need to move on as soon as possible, otherwise it will become very difficult. And I can finally adopt a new puppy then!!! ^_^

I know it doesn't make too much sense to you, but I just had to get it out =]

Cheers!

P.S. Btw, Humpty Dumpty was pushed!!!

Financial crisis hits Heaven O_o

2009-03-04T01:23:00.000-08:00

Due to the current financial crisis facing the world, the light at the end of the tunnel will be switched off until further notice to save on electricity costs.

Yours sincerely,

God

Halloweentown O_o

2009-03-03T12:54:00.000-08:00

I love the fact that there are gory little parties on a regular basis here. You can dress up every now and then without having to wait for Halloween. Slasher's Night, Graveyard Bash, Afterlife Party, you name it!

So I'll get out the filmblood and my spooky Halloween dress [it's rather trashy to be perfectly honest :P], put a grim smile on and have a hell of a good weekend! [I don't care if it's only Tuesday! :P]

Night night!

Killer Mood >_<

2009-03-02T11:59:00.000-08:00

Underage high school boys in uniforms ^_^

2009-03-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

There just is something about them... :P

Spring ^_^

2009-03-01T02:06:00.000-08:00

I hate the transition from winter to summer, which is widely known as spring, but still, it has been allright so far.

Hope everyone has a lovely first spring day and lots and lots of love for all my readers!

Halloween _

2009-02-28T10:54:00.001-08:00

I just remembered that in high school I had a date on Halloween. I met the guy and I dragged him to the graveyard, he was really funny about it, he didn't even want to come with me, but he eventually had to :P It was the weekend and the next week he just walked past me in school. What a moron! Graveyards are the best place to hang out on Halloween!

[pic by: Mom ^_^ Thank you! I couldn't be at home on Halloween last year so my Mom sent me some pics.]

One cider, two ciders, three ciders, floor >_< [I'm talking about whole pints mkay?!:P]

2009-02-28T10:48:00.000-08:00

Springtime came to Camden Town, the days are longer and I definitely can lose my winter coat! Did I tell you recently how I love Camden?! I think I did, but here it is again:

I spent the whole day in Camden, chillin', pubbin', just hangin' out. It will be so good in the summer, can't wait!

Cheers! ^_^

Oli Sykes <3

2009-02-27T01:47:00.001-08:00

Protesters..._

2009-02-26T14:29:00.000-08:00

It's so funny because like every other day there are some protesters in central London. Don't get me wrong, I find it really good and courageous what they are doing and I wish them all the best in achieving their goals! ...but it's still so funny, sorry =]] I would definitely protest for animal rights though!

Anyway the mother of all protests in London is the anti-war protest camp set up in Parliament Square, outside the Palace of Westminster and it's been going on for a ridicoulosly long time. The most well-known Parliament Square protester is called Brian Haw and he has been camping there since 2001.

The Herald, 26 February:
The protest camp in Parliament Square is a "national embarrassment" that is "permanently disfiguring" London, senior Tories said today.

Sir Patrick (Staffordshire S): "Whilst it is absolutely important that people should be free to demonstrate outside Parliament peacefully, to lobby Parliament, it is quite wrong that there should be a squalid encampment permanently disfiguring the centre of our great capital city."

See You At The Bitter End O_x

2009-02-26T14:19:00.000-08:00

So there actually is a place called The Bitter End, it's NYC's oldest rock club. Nice ^_^

Placebo will be on tour all summer baby!!!

Lavender <3

2009-02-26T12:26:00.001-08:00

I just love the mesmerizing perfume of lavenders!!! <3

Eat Me, Drink Me O_o

2009-02-26T12:06:00.000-08:00

These past days I've been listening to Manson's Eat Me Drink Me album again, he is a bit emo on this one, but I like the sound and the lyrics anyway, I bought it first thing when it came out ^_^ It's not as good as the good ol' "sex and don't forget the violence" Manson, but it's all right. Actually everything is understandable, he just divorced Dita Von Teese and he was about to hook up wit Evan Rachel Wood. If you check out the pics of the two Manson-ladies, you can tell that the new Mrs. Manson to be (?) is starting to look like Dita, Manson must be really missing her I guess...

Anyway I wanted to post some lyrics from this album...

I kill myself in small amounts

in each relationship, it's not about love.

Just another funeral and

just another girl left in tears.

....

I gave my soul to someone else,

she must have known that

it was already sold.

It was never about her,

it was about the hurt.

U draw the conclusion... ^_^ [not that there is or should be any O_x]

Serious shoe addiction _

2009-02-26T11:29:00.000-08:00

Kurt Geiger is my new hero, he designs amazing shoes, his Carvela line makes me want to spend all my money on those pretty shoes *_*

I am posting a few in random order, genuine eye candy for all the shoe freaks out there ^_^

Dilemma... >_<

2009-02-26T04:19:00.000-08:00

I miss home so many times, I miss my family, my friends and that fact that home makes me feel so safe. But on the other hand the idea of moving back home for good scares the hell out of me, my heart would break because I would miss Camden so much.

I EFFIN LOVE MY DIRTY LITTLE CAMDEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was love at first sight and it never stops growing! Camden gives me the same feeling Cluj did when I started university. Sometimes I have these strong flashbacks of colours, smells and feelings and I feel like I'm dreaming, it's so strange but so nice...

I can't wait to go out in the weekend, boozed out, with my little odd scenes in my mind and have a great time, in Camden obviously ^_^

David Firth is a genius _

2009-02-26T02:00:00.000-08:00

I have posted his flash animations before [Scribbler and Salad Fingers], but here's another one. Enjoy this sick little masterpiece! ^_^

=]]

2009-02-25T09:50:00.000-08:00

Circus _

2009-02-24T14:12:00.000-08:00

I'm really afraid of the circus and especially of clowns. It might have something to do with Stephen King's IT (not to confuse IT -Pennywise- with cousin It from the Adams family!!! :P Btw I'm a big fan of Wednesday), I really don't know... Anyway, all I know is that when I see the McDonald's clown I want to punch him in the face and run screaming for my life. (please bare in mind the late hours, thus the fact that I am a bit overdramatizing and I also fail to be coherent).

If you watched Carnivale on HBO, you might understand my fear of the circus. I find it the most grotesque and the sickest thing on Earth, not to mention what they do to the poor animals (I take advantage of this topic and post a link to PETA2: http://www.peta2.com/TakeCharge/t-fightcircus.asp).
In case if you're out of any ideas on how to scare the sh*t out of me, don't send me a box filled with snakes and spiders and worms and mice and rats and aligators and cats and cockroaches, just dress up as a clown and you'll succeed.
So good night again and I hope I can go to sleep safe, because I know that some clowns might have sneaked under my bed... >_<

Daydreaming of this year's spring break _

2009-02-24T13:41:00.000-08:00

If I just turn off my thoughts and don't contemplate the stupidity of every god damn boy I meet lately [my sincere apologies for those who feel offended, no more hatemail please concerning this rather delicate matter :P], I can actually make plans and hope for a really nice time. I am going home for a week to see my family, looking forward to that one!

So this year instead of my beloved Vama Veche, we have this awsome plan to go to Brighton beach. Yeayyyyyy!

Anyway it keeps me alive when I have something to look forward to, and now I have two things, Home and Brighton!

P.S. God please don't make my plane crash! >_<

Night night to all!

What a shitty month >_<

2009-02-21T12:49:00.001-08:00

The return of the drama queen [that being me]. Take one...

Is there anything in this world that could get me out of this miserable state of mind I wonder?! So far nothing seems to work, I think I'm just a natural born depressed being... and yes, I'm the one who screws up everything because I lack any form of patience, not to mention my total incapability of taking decisions... grrrrrrrrrrrrr

Someone said that spring will change everything... well I effin hate spring!

P.S. Boys are stupid and they expect us to kill the spiders lurking on the wall!

Back on track ^_^

2009-02-18T09:14:00.000-08:00

It was a nice day and I'm really glad that my family and friends are okay and happy too today ^_^

Oh, and I'm really calm thanks to a very lovely person who is looking after me these days, he is very dear to me ^_^

Now I'll have a glass of wine and relax.

Cheers!

Sylvinka in Wonderland 2.0

Annoying O_x

About birds and bees ^_^

November rain and borderline relationships... O_o

Small talk o_o

Friends <3

X_x

Michael was innocent! >_<

R.I.P. Michael Jackson! =[

O_o

The story of the annoying bird >_<

Shoes shoes shoes *_*

meat.org

Prince Charming O_x

Tearless times O_O

My favourite poem of all times [Hungarian]

Puppies <3

Happy Children's Day! ^_^

Drag Me To Hell >_<

Professor Stephen Hawking *_*

My Neighbor Totoro <3

It's like this most days... O_o

Wishes... *_*

I love...

Wind and trees *_*

Note to self O_o

Funny vid ^_^

Throw rocks at boys! ^_^

My to do list for the day [and for the week perhaps] X_x

Oh no, I'm not... O_o

1 Mai Muncitoresc *_*

No

New Blog! ^_^

80's hair >_<

The evil black cat *_*

Gipsy girl tattoos... *_*

People are stealing my writings... >_<

Earth Day ^_^

Bad hair day >_<

Exterminator mode X_X

Fashion disaster O_o

Noone loves me >_<

I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT I <3 CRAIG MABBITT

A must see *_*

Nostalgic... O_o

Prozac X_X

Blaaaaank O_o

High school obsession *_*

Sober ^_^

Strange fact of the day *_*

Car doors... O_o

Hey little sister what have you done?! ^_^

Pirates O_x

P!ink ^_^

Another religion related post, sorry... O_o

God *_*

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Rest in peace my beloved grandpa!

I Will Battle For The Sun... O_o

Confessions... O_o

Withdrawal >_<

20

Straight edge time ^_^

Emo moments >_<

The Wizard of Oz <3

The most outrageous thing!!! >_<

15th of March - Hungarian National Day ^_^

TIFF 2009 [Cluj-Napoca] *_*

I know... *_*

...

Weirdo O_o

Deserted island dilemma *_*

Beautiful masterminds *_*

Don't call, don't text, don't send mails, save your time >_<

Childhood memories <3

I am totally fine mkay? ^_^

Hottest Rock Stars *_*

>_<

Contemplating Reiko O_o

Lost... O_o

Shoes shoes shoes _

Professor Stephen Hawking _

Wishes... _

Wind and trees _

1 Mai Muncitoresc _

The evil black cat _

Gipsy girl tattoos... _

A must see _

High school obsession _

Strange fact of the day _

God _

TIFF 2009 [Cluj-Napoca] _

I know... _

Deserted island dilemma _

Beautiful masterminds _

Hottest Rock Stars _

Comfortably numb _

Halloween _

Protesters..._

Serious shoe addiction _

David Firth is a genius _

Circus _

Daydreaming of this year's spring break _